~Rockitch

my boyfriend goes away to nelson for three months on the 21st of this month, and i plan on followig him at the end of august, but i cant help but have this voice scream at from inside the back of my head "STOP BEING AN IDIOT! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING?!" so im a tad nervouse, maybe its just because this is the first thing im doing in life, just for me. my dad told me he was concerend because i would be too far away from help and the people that care about me.... so he wants me to stay in my comfort zone... which realy isnt me in any shape or form. and my mother just doesnt want me to go and leave school and go to nelson for two months because then the child support payments stop coming in, and then she may have to get her first fuoll time job in her entire life (i think she may just go on the sickness benifit instead, and spend her days at home thinking of ways to yell at me and make my life hell) my sister wants me to stay so that i can move in with her, and live in her falt so that she doesnt have to pay as much rent while she goes to teachers colledge. ditto. and my friends are either realy supportive and just cry because they are going to miss me, or realy angry at me for leaving thema t such hard times in their life. my boyfriend just wants me to leawd my own life, and would realy like for me to go with him, but only if thats what i want. and i do realy watn it, im extremly excited to have an adventure, my first real adventure in life..... my first shot at independance.